Ok, here's the scoop for all who don't know whats going on in my life right now. I'm sorry I dont have time to call all of you and let you know... So back a few weeks ago my manager asked me if I would be interested in helping out and working at Blue Cross animal (our clinic is owned by Progressive Pet Animal Hospitals, which owns like 10 other clinics.)   Anyway, they are short ppl there and they are in need of help. So I drove done there very early one morning getting paid time and a half plus expenses. I ended up to this again the next week. (they even got me a nice hotel to stay in). Anyway. I liked it down there. My sis suggested I move there. I talked to kris about it and he said he would have more chances and oportunites in comics and in getting a job down there. So I talked to my manager, who ended up talking to our operations manager and I will be getting transferred down there. I should start around Oct 17th. Kris and I went down (or over there) last Thursday and got an apartment. SO ...that means...sorry guys  I know you'll miss me, but i'm moving to Cleveland.(lol if anyone even reads this) When kris graduates in Dec he will move in with me. But from Oct, to Dec I'll be alone. I might be online a lot then...lol..if I can afford it. I'm not too sure about that...internet, phone, not sure about cable (never had it so I can live without...unless I can't pick up any stations) plus electric (thats the only utility I have to pay...that i'm excited about). Now I gotta try to get my stuff moved in. I'm moving my sis this weekend, so I won't have time. But the following weekend I'll prolly spent moving in a bunch of my stuff.. Yes my sis and I are doing ANOTHER THING AT THE SAME TIME.  We seem to do everything at the same time.... Kris said next thing I know (at the rate my sis is going) she will be getting married soon, like in a couple months, so she is married b4 me. I was like "um no, she's not allowed..I called it first" haha. Yeah...so i'm not sure If I wanna post my new address on the internet. But if you really want it call me/email me/ visit me or whatever and I'll give it too you. Not sure when I will be offically moved there. But we'll see. I'll try to keep this posted.

P.S. That trailer that I was talking about, they just kept giving me the run around and then this oportunity came up so I ended up just saying "fuck it" to them. Besides the last thing I heard from them anyway, they said they were gonna call me back and then they didn't. There loss...now they gotta find someone else interested in buying it. Oh well... things seem to be working out more for me now. Plus I got a raise at work...YAY!!

Its been a while. I know I was gonna write in here a week or so ago, I told myself I was...then I ended up getting really busy. I was trying to buy a home, in this little trailer park and my application didn't go through cause I don't have any credit. Then they said if I had another income such as that of my fiance then that would be ok...but kris isn't working right now. Well I talked it over with my parents and they are thinking about co-applying...or co-signing. Well my dad at least. I don't know though how that will work out. Plus I was denied or whatever on FRi...I hope the place is still there. It is a little place and needs some work but thats ok, see they are selling the place for only $500. B/c they are losing money on lot rent and just want ppl in there. So to get it I have to have a $400 deposit, pay for the place ($500) and pay the first months lot rent ($310). Kris will be helping me out but every month I will haveto pay the lot rent and utilites, and I know we can make it...but they have to bee leery since I don't have credit I understand that..I jsut hope it works out. I really need to move up to michigan, the drive is gonna be too rough in the winter...I don't wanna do that. Plus gas prices suck ass now. I got to excited about the place before..so i'm tryingto think positive..but not too positive...I don't wanna be let down again. It will be a cute place. Kris and I could make it look nice. We don't have a lot of money, so its not like we can afford a house...but I don't wanna live in an apt. Besides..this is a little less a month then living in an apt. I wouldn't advise a trailer park, if you have to take out a loan to get the trailer..then its expensive every month...but i don't have to if I can get it for $500.

Wedding stuff is kinda at a halt right now...most of my stuff has a down payment down....gotta figure out flowers, person to marry us (ie judge), need to get my girls in to the dress shop cause mary margret is bugging me about that, and need to try ti figure out honeymoon stuff...otherwise ok for now.

Bored as hell.... "and I wanna get ill"....Sorry I started singing a song I know in my head. I wish it was later already. July 28th seems late. But not late enough. Its cus I miss kris. Though him and I have not been getting along well. Everything turns into a fight. Thats probably all my fault but oh well. It still sucks.

On a lighter note, I got to witness the miracle of life today. A cat came into our hospital today because it was having trouble with its birthing and we had to give it a couple injections to help it along. We may have had to have done a C-section if she didn't start parturition soon. But finally we started to see a bit more then the amniotic sac hanging out. Well to make a very long story shorter, She had 5 beautiful kittens. She was being a wonderful mommy too. As well and being a very nice cat to us too. She was a doll.

Back to a darker note... I had a horrible dream the other night. It was my wedding, but everything was wrong. I was getting married in some building that was dark and 2 floors. I was getting ready, putting on pantihose (which i'm not wearing in real life) and they ripped. Then I was wearing some weird lingerie that I  was trying to shove into the pantihose. (that wasn't working). I finally got my dress on and it was the ugliest thing ever. It even had big poofy shoulders...I HATE THAT. And every time I looked down at my chest I was flatter then I already am. I went walking down some hallway trying to figure out where I was suppose to be and Kris saw me. I got all upst because he wasn't suppose to see me beforehand. Well I got all ready to walk down the ile and for some reason I had to walk from the upstairs down to the bottom floor and then down that ile. Unfortunately, no one really showed up for the wedding. Not even my bridesmaids. So my friend kristin and samantha (who had been kind enough to come) jumped in quick to take their place. Well because I was poor and couldn't be picky with this building I had to share my time with another girl getting married. So she walked down and then I would. Well a ton of ppl were walking down and it was so discombobulated that it was really confusing. SO I finally got to wear I would be walking down the 1st floor ile  and I looked around and I only knew about three ppl there. Mom, and one of my brothers (don't know which one) and then my dad who would walk me down the ile. So I turned to the man next to me figuring it was my dad and he and I would start walking and I was some other random man. I looked fast down the ile and my dad had already walked down the ile in all of the confusion. I looked at my mom quick ( who was sitting in the way back and the wrong side) and she shrugged. So I yelled "dad!" and he looked back and had the face of "oh...whoops." Then I just started bawling. I was trying to control myself but everything was wrong. Then I woke up and this dark building wasn't real I was in bed and it was all a dream. Thank fucking god.